We’ve all heard different reasons about the importance of failure. So I am asking myself “Am I Failing Enough?” I personally don’t think I am. Somehow I think I should be challenging myself more. I know it sounds crazy because in 2 weeks I’ll be heading out for a 5100 mile self supported bike race. I often wonder if maybe I could be pushing myself more during training.
During training today I had a moment where I couldn’t push any harder. I was doing push presses and was on my second rep of 15. I got to 11 an my shoulders felt like they where going to explode and give out. I did one more and then put the bar back on the rack. I was pissed. I failed. I stopped. In the back of my head I kept thinking I couldn’t do anymore. At this very moment I’m still not sure if I was protecting myself from getting injured this close to the race, giving up mentally, or if I really had found my limit. Either way it was shitty feeling. But as I walked away with searing pain in both of my shoulders I kind of smiled. I recognized immediately that I would grow from this experience. And grow I shall.